The cabin smelled like stale coffee and the little lemon wipes they passed out before takeoff. I kept rubbing my thumb over a rough spot on my funeral program so I wouldn’t start crying again.

I was in the middle seat, flying home from my dad’s funeral. My black shoes were still on, and my knees were pressed against the seat in front of me. I’d been trying to make myself smaller since I boarded. I didn’t want anyone to have to deal with me.