The plastic wristband on my left arm had a barcode that wouldn’t stop itching, and the hospital room smelled faintly of bleach and stale orange juice from the breakfast tray I hadn’t touched. I remember looking at the green numbers on the heart monitor across from the bed, watching them bounce up and down in a steady, maddening little rhythm while Marcus walked through the door. He didn’t knock, because people like Marcus don’t think rooms belong to anybody else once they decide to step inside them. He was wearing that light gray suit with the narrow lapels I’d bought him for our anniversary three years ago, back when I still cared enough to dress him for things. He walked in carrying a brown leather portfolio tucked under his arm like he was a visiting VP coming to check on a minor logistics glitch, and he had that half-smile on his face, the one that always meant he was about to tell me something he thought was terribly clever. I had an intravenous line taped to the back of my hand with a strip of blue medical tape that was already peeling at the corner, and I could feel my pulse knocking against my ribs like a trapped bird. I didn’t say anything because my throat felt like sandpaper, and honestly, I just wanted him to get it over with so I could close my eyes and go back to sleep.